After almost one year of missing website data and technical issues, now the website is back online.
during this one year, I have been working somewhere else in another company for a similar job. this time, the company has no problem for a regular life as an employee and the job was safe. I was not happy with that. it’s like my brain’s wiring keep poking me with the fear of missing out. FOMO of living my dreams while I had no specific dream for this life. AI is developing fast, I’m studying MBA now and money is a big issue. all these paradoxes and discomfort with my own thoughts, led me to resign and make my life chaotic again. the chaos I am looking for comes from somewhere inside my mind that I do not know why and where but my intuition tells me: “this is the right thing to do for now”.
So, I talked to my therapist and resigned. heading to an unknown future. just during last days of my job, a war started over my country. It was awful. people died over a meaningless war. although, that was ended in 12 days and my country lost a lot, leaving me with an inevitable anxiety of this weird start.
now it’s like two weeks after the war and being unemployed. I’m working on my past and life timeline. the album of my memories is being analyzed. some regular routines are being set, and I suppose I am going to be ready to start something at next week or two.