After a lot of times I’m back with another diary. Today is 4th Aug and almost 6 month past from my biggest change in workspace.
I’ve been busy with some childish fights with my subordinates apparently because of lack in Emotional Intellegencies. I had talked with my direct manager (CTO), HR Maganer and Therapist about it and during these month I’m improving in my skills. I had lots of mistakes in this process and payed a lot for this event but it worth it and I’m learning to be a Manager someday. building my characteristics for brighter future. I have learned:
- not to enter any argument with my subordinates and just decide for them.
- I should not Humiliate and destruct their personality by my words and action while showing them how their mistakes made me sad and they have to pay penalty for that.
- I should be careful not to mix everything together and not bring past to present.
- How I should be serious and poker face to not deliver or receive any emotion to/by them. (your emotions are not important fo me. I don’t care and I Ignore them. I’m not listening your emotions. now tell me what about that project?) (I’m talking poker face and nuteral with you. just work related. not smile not wrath, not…)
- How manage wich my Emotions right here, right now, how deliver my emotions to others to get more benefit from it and not anyone gets hurts. Its different with Emotional inhibition.
- My response to Excuse is emphatic sentences and ignore their excuses after a while. (This is your task and should be done until blah. you should do it. it’s your job.)
furthermore, Lastly I started Existentialism psychotherapy to find a way to let go my Four Existential Concerns and sources of Anxiety. They are death, freedom, isolation, and meaninglessness. I’m working on it for now and it’s a good omen.
beside to these topics, I have signed up for lots of courses in FARADARS for my next months. apparently I can learn a lot of topics by them through my future days. Good luck me 🙂 Instrumentation, LABVIEW, Arduino, Signal processing, AVR, PIC, ARM, power electricity, IOT, Python, CNC, Solidworks molding, Material choosing in industry, Rasberry pi, CMD, Writing, Networks.
At last, I’m working in this company with low payment and long hours to achieve something listed below. I should be careful by distraction and childplay.
- Growth in Emotional Intellegince
- Growth Management skills
- Growth by being around people like my CTO manger and my mentors.
- Discipline
- Stability
- Seriousness
- Avoid Distractions (Arguments and Neggings)
Don’t return empty-handed from your dreams. at least you should be motivated, agitated, design and explore imaginary possible ways