4 Dec 2022
After three days off, one day alone, and one Neurobion injection and lots of stuff, now I’m feeling just a little better. After passing till 11 am before work, and after being confident about being exhausted, maybe tomorrow I can wake up and show up at work finally.
I had a Music class today for an Iranian instrument called “NEY“. It was totally strange for me. everybody was hitting something and all that time I just wanted to get up and run. it was torture but I signed up for 10 sessions. now I have paid 37$ for that reason.
I didn’t have the motivation to write lots of stuff here and I think I will forget my life is not written in the future. This is Sad.
5 Dec 2022
Primary steps by COVID-19 were filled with joy and motivation for me; because of studying cognitive psychology and getting deep into my mind. The idea of his website came up at the time. during my study, I had the chance to learn about the MBTI test, which was a gate to knowing my personality. after mastering this area, and after visiting a therapist, now I have found a new test named 16fp (Ramond Cattell) and I think this maybe become my second gate to knowing myself. Many of my discoveries here correlate with my therapy and made me happy.
I have no energy to write more, so good night.
16 Dec 2022
I’ve just realized in this dark age of my resident country and all Internet blockage, I’m potentially available to get depressed for being deprived of a connection to the virtual world. once you get a leak of information through a paid VPN for some hours, you get excited and motivated to be alive and active as a person. then you realize the physical world is not your playground and you are just a virtual human in the virtual world. you don’t like their passions, their hobbies, and their emotions as much. here in the virtual world, you can define yourself, you can express yourself, and live happily and with no tension.
20 Dec 2022
Today I feel happy. Lina from Germany once was a couchsurfer in my house last night of the year 1400 (Solar Hijri calendar) and today she got to contact me on Whatsapp. She told me in her neuroanatomy class she had a lecture about C. Elegance, which we had discussed and I told her this creature is fascinating. now she told me “You were right, its fascinating” and I love it. so far someone gets my ideas in cognitive science somehow. or maybe I just want it to be lovely for me because I’m alone in this topic.