Today [13 Nov 2022] I’m listening to the book “When niche cried” while I’m riding my motorcycle before and after my job to change my mindset from the workspace (RTS). These kinds of works help me to separate my non-work life from work and are like a barrier against sludge leaks through my non-work life.
After 5 episodes, I know there is a 40 years old guy named blah blah (I never know names) who is a doctor, and is really good at his job. he has Sigmund Freud’s admiration and yet is not sure about his current mission. he is broken in his marriage and kind of fascinated by a new girl who is nice’s Mistress, this is a difficult position and besides, his mission is aside. struggling with niche’s disease, a combination of physical and mental problems which was not cured by 24 well-known doctors. I’m not sure this story is true, but yet makes me envious.
when he is talking about his other patients and how he cured them, how found a fantastic way or created some way for therapy, I’m placing myself in his shoes and wondering how I can perform and get results like him. that is what I’m thinking at the moment.
I feel kind of the same. in my work, I have the admiration of many others, I have a colorful past in this company, I love my job and I am good (by the time I’m working) at it, I have a tough mission that I know how vague and hard is it and nobody can understand it. I love to think deeply about matters like ethics and philosophy while they assign lots of their valuable therapeutical time to synchronize their beliefs. maybe I’m not much like him but I can understand his position somehow. maybe It’s connected with my “Intuitive” part.
It's getting late and I need some sleep to be ready for spinning capitalism wheels tomorrow.
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